Of Goals and GIFs

In the wee hours of the morning, I dreamed a recurring scene:  I was supposed to write a magazine article about parents setting goals in front of their children so they can show them how to do it in their own lives.  I planned to use the (somewhat silly) example of growing out my hair–as my daughter watched me doggedly struggle through bad hair days and awkward seasons–until I got my hair the way I wanted it.

FullSizeRenderMy sisters and me (left), playing around with our mother’s monstrous stash of wigs.

So far, so good. (?)

But in my dream, every time I wrote a couple of paragraphs, the computer screen ate them and I was left with nothing.  Then I grabbed a notebook and rewrote them, but I couldn’t read my own handwriting.  Back to the computer.

The clock kept ticking, and I was aware that I had fifteen minutes until my article was due.  This scenario replayed itself in my dream like a wretched little GIF until I woke up, cranky and stressed.

After the kids and I ate breakfast and fed the dogs, I headed to my bedroom to write.  I told them that I needed some time to work because I’ve given myself a deadline to finish a first draft of my second novel before I leave the country next week (it doesn’t look like I’ll meet this goal, but I’ll probably come close).

I still felt the cloud of that anxious dream hanging over me and I wondered if my kids will think I’m crazy someday.  But then I consoled myself with this thought:  They’re seeing me work towards little and big goals every day, and, crazy or not, I’m showing them how to keep going.

I tell myself that’s got to count for something.

Moral of the story:  Don’t use over-the-counter sleep aids unless you’re prepared to dream in GIFs .

A Little Shot In the Old Arm

I’d seen this before, but it bears watching again.  I want my kids to know this.  I want to know this.  If you purse any creative work, it’s what you’ll have to face.  The point of this short interview with storyteller Ira Glass is to anticipate it, fight through it,and keep going.

Teach Your Child To Fail

Failure.  We hate it.  It’s bad enough when we experience it, but when it happens to our kids, it’s truly painful.  But there are two ways to fail.  The first leads to withdrawal, hurt pride, and giving up.  The second leads to success in the long run.   This kind is called failing forward and it leads to true learning.  Instead of quitting in the face of defeat it means getting back up, reassessing, and trying again.  The difference between the two types of failure is enormous and can change the trajectory a person’s life.

Failure itself is inevitable, of course, if one attempts to grow and learn.  Most great inventors, creatives, and history makers fail hundreds of times in their attempts to change the world before they ever see success.  But what separates them from those who grow discouraged and give up (aside from special intelligence, timing, or talent) is their ability to fail forward—to inch toward their goals, even as they land on their backsides again and again.

We want this kind of grit for ourselves.  Perhaps even more than that, we want to nurture it in our kids because we sense it will help them to achieve what they’re meant to do.  But how can we help them when it seems like some people are just born more resilient than others?

As usual, it starts with us.

We moms must teach our kids that failure is not the enemy.  We must convince them that it is a teacher that shows us what didn’t work and gives us hints as to what will.  There are things we can do to pave the way for failing forward in our kids.

·      We must manage our expectations.  When our kids try something new, do we expect them to “get it right” after a couple of tries?  Do we secretly hope that they make us look good when they play the piano? Do we experience a rush of irritation when our child stands up to give a speech in the local co-op, one we helped him practice many times in the last week, and he stammers, forgets whole sections, and says silly things? (Guilty as charged).  If we want to encourage proper risk-taking in our kids, we homeschool moms must let go of the results of their efforts.  We must divorce our sense of self-worth from the outcome of those attempts.  This is easier said than done, certainly, but it is imperative.  A child who is afraid to make mistakes (and disappoint Mom) is a child who will not try new things.

·       We must prepare our reaction to our child’s failure before it happens.  Sometimes it catches us off guard when our kids fail and we don’t always say what we ought to say.  Those moments after the sting of defeat are crucial ones for our kids and they are often looking to us to know how to feel about them.  We can decide, in advance, how we will handle those times, even creating a script for ourselves.  We might say, “I saw the effort you put into that car you made.  And even though it fell apart, I am so proud of how hard you worked on it.  That kind of focus will take you far.  Keep trying because I know you can do it.”  Knowing what we will say before our child fails will help us to respond in an encouraging way.

·      We must allow our kids to see us fail.  Um, ouch.  No one likes to fail.  But grown-ups like to fail least of all.  We all do, however, and it’s important to be honest with our kids when we try something and it doesn’t work.  We could say, “You know, I interviewed for that position and I didn’t get it.  I’m disappointed but I won’t let that stop me.  I’m going to keep trying and trust that the right job will come my way.”  Or in my case, “I’m still working on my book, and there’s lots I have to scrap.  I’m tired just thinking about it.  But it means a lot to me, so I’m going to take a break and try again—even though I don’t feel like it right now.”  We think these kinds of conversations don’t make much of an impact on our kids, but they do.  Our kids are always listening.

·      We must be honest about fearThis is getting into the weeds, I know.  But why do people not try new things?  Because they don’t want to mess up.  Why don’t they want to mess up?  Because they are afraid—afraid to look stupid or like losers.  But decisions that are fear-based are often not good ones.  There are sensible reasons to be afraid of some risk-taking, of course.  Nine times out ten, however, we hold ourselves back from trying new things or embracing new opportunities because we are scared, not because we are prudent.  And guess what?  Our kids pick up the unspoken message that to “play it safe” and “be like everyone else” is the way to avoid failure.  As they grow, they inherit our fears, adding some of their own, until they lose the ability to step out in faith in a variety of ways.  We need to show our kids that while fear in the face of failure is normal, it will not be the deciding factor in our choices.  This starts with asking ourselves in what ways we are “stuck” or afraid.  For me, it means praying and asking the Lord to show me where I’m allowing fear to control my decisions.  We need to be honest with our kids when we’re afraid of trying something new, and then we need to try it anyway.

We teach our kids how to go potty and how to tie their shoes when they are little.  Later we teach them math and biology.  But one of the best lessons we can teach, a lesson that will last a lifetime, is how to fail and to keep moving forward.